I felt so bad that we were not home to visit Harry on Easter so for FHE on Monday we took him some Pinwheels or Windmills, whatever you call them. The kids love visiting Harry and taking him stuff. We picked his headstone out a few weeks ago, dang expensive, but I can't wait to finally have it there. Unfortunately it won't be ready for Memorial day, sometime in June is when its supposed to be in.
It will be 6 months on April 28th since he was born. We miss him so much but we are doing really good. I know that many have voiced their opinions on how they feel that me keeping a blog/journal for him and my thoughts is not good for me, keeping me sad, but I think its been the one thing that has helped. I finally had a place to talk about him and let my emotions out. I am also able to connect with other moms who've been in similar situations. Its definitely been healing for me.
I think about him often and wonder what my life would be like with him here, but I know I am a better person because he is in heaven waiting for us. I have grown so much in these past few months. I was so touched by the talks in General Conference. I felt as though they were speaking to me. There were so many talks on losing children, babies and those trials. I was so grateful for Richard G. Scotts talk I think it was about how he lost two babies and one shortly after birth and then his wife most recently. I just cried, I see him and his faith and strong testimony and it truly is hope. Also I was so touched by our Prophet Thomas S. Monson, what an amazing man, he said, "Your future is at bright as your faith." I just cried, almost the whole time. I am so grateful for what I have even more now than ever. I know if I am strong and faithful I can raise him again.
The kids love Harry, here they are giving him a goodbye kiss. They still talk about him all the time. Hudson asks every now and then, "Where is Harry going to sleep?" And when its Hudson's turn to say the pray he says, "Bless mommy, daddy, Huddy, Ruby and Harry." He never forgets. I love that they still think of him and he is their baby brother. Ruby always sings about Harry and says things like, "I love my Harry." "Where's my baby Harry?"
The family visiting Harry.
The family visiting Harry.
3 comments:
That's great that you have the headstone ordered. It will be nice for you to have that up :) And I think it's great that you guys visit his grave all the time.
I am gonna punch the person or people who told you it wasn't good for you to have a blog or journal, its none of their business, you have to do what is right for you and until someone is in that situation they shouldn't have an opinion! I think it will be neat to have a headstone and can't wait to see it! We are planning on going to his grave for memorial day. We need to think of something really cute to place on it!
I can't wait until I can get home and take little things to the cemetery. I am so glad that you were able to go to celebrate a late Easter. Your kids are so adorable.
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