Halloween Pics and an update

My little garden fairy. She would not look at the camera. I wasn't sure if she would keep her wings on but she did and she loved them. She also loved her tutu, she loves to wear it and whenever she does she gets on her tippy toes. What a little girly.

Here's the Halloween Crew in front of Grammy's house. They wanted to trick-or-treat not take pictures as you can see no one would smile.

Ruby-The Fairy, Bingham-The Turtle, and Hudson-The Bat

My little fairy

My Bat Boy

On Halloween, we decided it was just as easy for me to lay at my moms as at our house. So we went down and had soup, pizza, and treats. The dads took the kids trick-or-treating while the moms stayed home and handed out candy. Although I just laid on the couch. It was the perfect night for Halloween, the kids had a blast.

Update: I came home from the hospital on Thursday afternoon. My blood levels and BP were still low and I was 16 lbs heavier than when I went to the hospital on Saturday due to the shock to my body from the transfusions and all the IV's. My wonderful Dr. felt I would be fine to recover at home as long as I had help. My bleeding was the best its been my whole pregnancy, so we knew I would just continue to get better and better. Thank heavens. It was nice to finally be home with my family and just rest in my own bed and not be poked anymore. I have now lost all that extra weight, which was water from the shock to my body, I finally have some color to my face and I am slowly regaining my strength. On Saturday, we had a memorial service for Harrison. It was probably just as hard as the day he was born. I was still really weak , swollen, and sick and so that didn't help. My father gave the most amazing prayer at the mortuary. I couldn't even get up to go to the car I was crying so hard. It was so hard to see such a small casket and to see my husband carry it. My wonderful Aunt Lauri made the most amazing flower arrangement for it. Hudson had a hard time. He kept asking why he couldn't see his brother, we explained the best we could, and now he knows we have a special place to visit him anytime we want. After the family prayer, we headed to the memorial park where he was buried. Our bishop gave a wonderful little talk and then Trent took a few minutes to express his feelings on what had happened. He did amazing. As many of you know Trent writes and composes music and he's written a song for all our children. Well, the day after we had Harrison he went home to shower and rest for a bit and wrote him a song. It is the sweetest most special thing I have ever heard. He hasn't however written the music to it, but he did read it at the graveside, it was, well, words can't even describe. I am so grateful for his talent and love as a Father. Then Trent's dad did the dedication and it was wonderful. It was such a hard day, but such a special and spiritual day as well. I want to thank all our family and friends for being there to support us. We really appreciate all you've done for us. Our ward, which we are new too, has just taken over, bringing in meals every day and taking my kids in the morning so I can rest and recooperate. Although I have to say I don't really like to be alone. Its so quiet and that's when I break down. Yesterday was the first day I had been alone and I had a hard time, but I am doing better today. We are hanging in there. Trent and I have our moments but its just nice to be to together as a family. I think sometimes people forget that as a dad, Trent is just as sad and heart broken. I called him yesterday crying, saying how hard it was to not be pregnant anymore and to have gone through labor and have all the side effects and no baby to hold. He explained that he was just as sad and was just as excited to be a dad again, as I was a mom. We are trying our best to get through this and we know it will take sometime, they say it gets better and I'm just waiting. I am getting the mold they took of Harrison's hands and feet this week, I am so excited to see them. The lady from SHARE, said they turned out just perfect and she was amazed at the size for his age. They have been so good to us during this time. And it helps to have the gospel and so many family and friends who are so supportive, words can't express our gratitude at this time.

Anyways, that's all I just wanted to update you on whats been going on.