Sunday, January 23, 2011

Mother of the year

It seemed for about a week straight Hudson and I just weren't getting along. He was disobeying everything! He is usually an easy going kid. Doesn't really get into trouble, just goes with the flow. Yes he's a typical kid and does "kid" things but for the most part he's a great kid. Well, back to the story. So we weren't getting a long and he was on my last nerve. So what was I doing? What I do best, Yell! Yes I admit it, I'm a yeller and I HATE IT! I dont yell all the time but i do yell and i am not a very patient mom. One of my big goals this year is to change that. So I guess I got really mad at him one day and I started crying saying, "You don't love me! You wouldn't care if I left right now! You don't appreciate me or respect me!" Yes, I know, all the wrong things to say to a 6 year old kid, but I had had it! I sent him to his room and told him to write me a note saying whatever he wanted but that he needed to tell me how sorry he was and that he'd be a good kid. (I now can't remember the specifics as to why he was in so much trouble or why he was sent to his room, but it probably wasn't a big deal, just the last straw!) He came out a few minutes later with a note he had handwritten all by himself that said,
I will be nice to you if you won't yell at me. 
will you forgive me?
Love, Hudson!

Yes, I cried. Yes, I felt bad. And Yes, I should win mother of the year.  

5 comments:

Dobby said...

April, I know exactly how you feel. I used to be a yeller when my older kids were little. One day Dave asked me it my mother yelled at me a lot. I told him no but after I started thinking about it, I remembered that she did yell a lot! At that point i also remembered how it felt to be yelled at by her and I immediately stopped yelling at my kids. I rarely yell anymore and haven't for years for the most part. It makes me feel better. Don't feel guilty, just try to change it. You're not alone!! Hang in there, parenting isn't always easy :)

Merrilee said...

I have one going through a "stage" right now that is killing me! And I always feel like I handle everything wrong! I remember someone telling me once that parenting is really easy. I thought they were either lying, crazy or had completely different kids than mine. It seems like every day I look back and think about everything I should have handled differently. I'm sure you are a great mother! Thanks for sharing. It's nice to know others feel the same sometimes!

Sammy said...

that makes me want to cry! WHAT A SWEETHEART! not to make you feel worse ha ha, oh i love that boy, but i'm sure that it really was the last straw, don't feel bad I can't imagine having to watch 3 kids all day, you are a GREAT mother and SHOULD be mother of the year!

Brooke said...

I REALLY like that story. For one, its really good to know that I am not the only one who has a good yell sometimes. I am also not the only one who feels terrible when I do, sometimes I just can't help it. But it also shows us exactly why we are taught to become childlike. It seems like no matter how mad I am at Sydney she is always the first one to forgive. Kids are the best. And yes, you should get mother of the year, because you have raised a kid with a heart of gold!

Willies said...

i find myself starting to yell too, thanks for making me see it too. I know how you feelthough and haydn is only 18 months ;/