So grateful for my hubby!

Trent was holding Finney the other day and they looked so cute together in red I just had to snap a photo. 

 Trent sure loves Finn. 

When Finn was first born and for the first few weeks/months, he had a hard time because Finn looked so much like Hudson it made him realize that Harry would probably look just like that too. Our nephew Boen was just 2 months at the time of Harrison's birth/death. Trent always struggled holding him or being around him. Boen looked a lot like Hudson as a baby and whenever Trent would hold Bo I could just see the pain in his eyes. He misses Harry so much but Finn has helped Trent heal a lot. He says regularly how cute he is. He goes in every night before we go to bed to just look at Finn sleep and I know he's thinking about Harry. 

I think a lot of people forget about the husband in a situation like ours. The other day we were talking and he said that Harry really affected him in so many ways. While I was able to recover at home in bed and have people wait on me hand and foot till I regained my strength, he had to pick up all the pieces around us and continue working so he could provide for our family. Right around the time Harry was born the economy started to tank and it took a tole on Trent's business, but Harry's death did as well. He didn't want to wake up, get out of bed, let alone go work. But he knew we had a large house in Mt Green to pay for, thousands and thousands of medical bills, and a business that would fail if he didn't. He says almost on a weekly basis when he goes to new businesses and they talk about the economy and how its affected his business, Harry always comes up because that had just as big of an impact. I am so proud of him for being so strong and caring on so that we would be ok. I was on bed rest for a few weeks after and he took such good care of me and the kids, all while trying to keep his business afloat. He had to make important decisions along the way, one being that we would have to move from our beautiful home. I remember being devastated. We had just moved to a new town, a new home and we had just lost a baby and I was still recovering both physically and both of us mentally and he wanted to move? Well, flash forward 2 years later and he we are in a house and neighborhood we love. Now yes, its not brand new and beautiful like Mt Green, but its home, and hopefully someday with all the work we are doing be beautiful. We have been fortunate to move into a ward with people who love and welcomed us and some who have also lost babies. I am so lucky to have such an amazing husband who works so hard for our family. His business survived and is growing, he is set to have one of the biggest years ever, too bad he's still playing catch up. I love that he loves me and our kids so much. I love that he loves Harry. It hurts me to still see him struggle over losing him, but like he tells me almost daily he is just so grateful he didn't lose two people that day.