Stress City

Well, its official, I don't think the stress or craziness in our lives could get any worse. There is a list of the most stressful things that happen in someones lives, Moving, Illness, Death, Divorce, Unemployment, and a few more. As many of you know we have gone through our fair share of these since July and are on our way to another one. Luckily its not divorce, we are happily married and in love and its no unemployment, my husbands business is doing just great. Unfortunately we have experienced the others, which aren't any better. We moved from my favorite home and favorite people in July, I found out I was pregnant a week after we moved and was terribly sick my whole pregnancy and almost died, and we lost our baby boy Harrison at 21 weeks, and now................................................we are moving again. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Yes I know a little bit of a shock, it sure was to me. Trent came to me a few weeks ago and said, "I think we need to move." I just blew up, obviously. Two weeks before I had just lost my baby and I was still recovering. Its not that we have too or that he wants too, he just wants to do the right thing.
I'll try to keep this short and sweet and not bore you with all the details, just a few. When we were looking for a home to buy in the summer we weren't coming across anything we liked, or anything that would be a great deal. Then a friend of Trent's, who is also a financial advisor with our FA gave us a proposal. And after a long process of making sure it was a good deal, praying, fasting, and talking with people about it, it was a great deal and we felt right about it. Although I have to say I was still a little hesitant, it felt right. Well, part of the proposal was that we lease this house and purchase it within 2 years at the price it is worth today. So it was great because we hoped it would be worth more and we'd have instant equity and not lose any money. Well, as you know the housing market, economy, and lending situation has completely fallen since the summer and the lenders aren't just giving away loans you actually have to work for one and if your self employed its even harder. So we just don't see how it would work out. Its hard because we really don't have to move, no one is making us, we are doing just fine, but to keep throwing our money away into a house we don't think we would buy in a year is a waste. I have an emotional wreck and struggled with this because we like it up here, all of us do and why would we feel the need to move here only to have our lives fall apart up here.
We are in a good place financially and its nice that we can just walk away from this home and we didn't get too in over our heads. We have actually found a house, a great house, back by family and friends. Its not brand new and crazy nice like this one, but its really nice and and has tons of space, so no moving, maybe ever, unless we want too. It is in need of a few updates so it will be fun to add our own touches. I hope I haven't traumatized my kids for life with all these things that have happened in 6 months, but we know there is a reason and we know that trials only make you stronger. We hope to move sometime in December, yes just bring the stress on. December as you know is cold, snowy, our 6 year Anniversary, the next day Ruby's 2nd b-day and then 3 days later Christmas. It will be crazy but I think we'll finally be HOME. I've never felt like this was my home, probably because in the back of my mind I knew we didn't own it and I knew that it wasn't permanent. But our new house feels like home, and maybe it will be good to start over. I do love Mountain Green however, maybe someday we'll be able to come back.